why i have a crush on my teacher

ok so the previous post i was talking about teacher-student crush. now im going to tell slightly about the crushes i have on my own teachers. actually i have had quite a few crushes on teachers. i myself don't know why. k so the first teacher crush i remember was my A maths teacher. at that time i was in sec3 and he taught me for two years. (15 and 16 years old). i assume he is around 30 plus. i don't really know why i like him. he is not handsome or whatsoever. i just like him because i think that he looks cute when he smiles. the thing is that i always see him and that makes me difficult to forget him. now that i don't see him anymore, i can forget him. so that is one way to forget your crush. don't think of him. don't see him. but sometimes you cannot avoid because he is teaching you. maybe when he teaches, just don't look at his face and pay attention to whatever he says. probably there are no cute guys(students) in my class so i have to go for a teacher.

the next crush i have and am having now is my crush towards my professor in university. why i like him is of course because of his looks. but looks are secondary. i like him more because i feel that he is a very educated person. he i mature, smart and cute!!!!ah!!!!!!so when i see him its like, my heart will beat fast. and every time, he will ask questions in class. i will always make an attempt to give good answers because i want him to have a good impression of me. but whatever it is, he is actually married and he has 5 children. OMG.. quite productive huh. somehow when i look at his photos with his wife and children, i have mixed feelings. first, i feel quite jealous. LOL!!!but at the same time, i feel happy to see that he is happy with his family.!!!wow!hahahha..whatsoever he is 30 plus and im 20. so that's quite a huge gap. probably, i need to think of him as my father? and start to look at the bad things in him. but i can't do that!!!gosh what am i suppose to do?

i realise this post is quite long.i should stop here.

having a crush with your own lecturer/teacher?

so just wondering if you people out there have ever had crushes on your professor/teacher/lecturer? so will this crush be more of a disadvantage or an advantage to you? as for me, i feel that it can be both but you need to make use of the feeling you have towards your teacher to benefit yourself. so, on the positive side, if you ever do have a crush on your teacher, it can somehow motivate you to study and do well especially for his module as you will want him to have a good impression on you..yeah.you wouldn't want your crush to think that you are stupid or an idiot rite. on the other side, having a crush or your teacher can also be something bad if you cannot control your feelings. so lets say the teacher is teaching the class and you keep looking at his cute face without paying attention. looking at your teacher somewhat makes you lose focus and you keep staring at him blindly. im sure that a lot of students out there have ever had crushes on your teacher/lecturer but have you ever wondered if lecturers ever had crushes on students???yeah something to ponder.

HMMM...

so school has just started and it has been effing busy lah..wah so tired. now im taking chinese 2 and its like so difficult lah. cannot cope redi. other modules are also the same. hmmmm...i have to survive this! btw, hari raya has been OK. so this sun, will be going out with my secondary school friends. so excited to meet them!

One more day to Raya..

Alrite this post is going to be real short. Di kesempatan ini, saya cuma ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua orang Islam serata dunia. Pejam celik bulan Ramadhan hampir tiba ke penghujungnya. semoga amal ibadah kita sepanjang bulan ini diterima Allah. Amin.

hey just sharing this photo i got from the net. fret not if u are a single (like me)..heheh

hey everyone so previously, i remembered one of my posts stating the reasons as to why I have been single all along.. alrite so now im going to talk about one one of my crushes. hahha..sounds like i have many crushes.im writing about him because im thinking of him and he is my last crush i've had. even though i have not met him for like 1 year plus, im not sure why im still thinking of him..haiz..alrite. so now i met this boy when i worked part time after my Alevels. im not going to mention the workplace.i don't know why i like him. he is around 6 years older than me. that's quite a huge gap rite?aniwaes, i find him cool, relax, cute and funny. that's why. i don't know why i like him when i actually know that he will never be the type of guy that i like. he drinks, smokes heavily and clubs. he is not even handsome so why and how do i fall for him?i myself cannot answer. there was this time when i was inside the mrt and i saw him after so long!!omg i was like damn shock.the world is small. he too lives in the east and i know one day i will meet him again. but not sure when. only time will telll... and you know what..probably its technology that has made this crush last long. i found (actually i search for) his facebook and his photos are not private so i am able to look at his face. he is not handsome at all but i don't know i still have feelings for him. and in his fb, he wrote a note about his gf. im not sure if they are still together. but when i read about it, i felt a bit upset. or is jealous?hahahha..i don't know why i am having feelings for someone who do not have the characteristics im looking for at all. and im not sure why this feeling cannot fade even after  i have not met him for such a long time. i thought crushes go away very soon.. omg this feeling is killing me. any love experts to help me?haahhahaha..

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