okay yesterday i went to meet my friend. currently, she is teaching in a secondary school. She told me a lot of stories about her students. all this while, the schools that I went to are considered quite good schools so the students are quite okay. in school, i have been befriending the good people who do not go home late at nights, who are filial sons and daughters, hardworking students. however, when i listen to her stories, it actually open my eyes. even when i started working during the holidays, i met people from different backgrounds who are not like my frens in school. I am not trying to say that they are bad people. even i do not know the definition of a good and bad person. i believe everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses and no one is pure evil. but i learn a lot from these kind of people and how they ended up being who they are. they shared their family problems with me and i find it similar to those i watch in the dramas. though they are not successful in their academic life, i think they are enjoying life. they spend a lot of time with their frens. but of course, they have a lot of other problems such as family problems. for instance one of my frens always spends time with his frens, go clubbing etc. but he is not close to his parents and they are not even concerned about him. there was one time when he did not go home for a few days and his parents didn't even search for him. he also play toto and when i asked him if his parents were against this, he said that even his father did that. on the other hand, though i have been achieving in my academic studies, i feel that I have sacrificed too much of my time and my life is so mundane and routine. i simply have no life and i spend most of my life studying. sometimes, i ask myself why I am going to this extent and what i exactly want in life..hmmmmm.....