dream interpretation

okay I wanna talk abt dreams. I know dreams at times do have meanings and I believe in that. so last night, I dreamt abt a baby. I was carrying a baby. im not sure whose baby it is  but I think it is my sister's. so I was holding the baby. why babies appear in my dreams? I think most prob because yesterday I was watching a video abt babies and laughing at them because they were too cute. the weird thing abt the baby is that the head is very lembik or soft whatever u call that. like theres some abnormality with the head. like its got a lot of water inside. sth like that. hmmm..why so weird leh the dream. ive heard this before;if u are pregnant, don't look at horrifying pictures. superstitious but to play safe, I will just not look if I get pregnant. tis means I will only have to look at nice pictures and handsome and pretty people lol including looking at the mirror always..lol. joking. that is why in islam, I think there are certain verses or surah in the quran that is good for you to read when u are pregnant. but of course we should not only read it for the sake of pregnancy n our child but make it a habit.hahahha.by the way, who is able to interpret my dreams?how come the baby's head is kinda abnormal?is that a sign of sth lol..

continuation of back pain

so the hospital actually referred me to the physiotherapist and I ve had my first session already. the guy's name is Jacob. at first he told me, do u need a female therapist but I told him im okay with both because I don't want him to feel rejected lol.. so he said I got muscle spasms and he did sth to my body. turned and twisted it lol. im not sure if its getting better. at the same time , im also taking muscle relaxant pills prescribed by the doctor from the hospital but u know what, the side effects are !$@#!#% everytime I eat the pills, I will feel extremely light headed, a feeling that I will just faint any moment. so its like I have to choose whether I wanna suffer with back pain or eat the pills but have that fainting feeling every moment. sometimes im not sure what to do so I just didn't eat it. hmmm..do all muscle relaxant pills give that side effects?terrible pills. okay back to the physiotherapist, he taught me some exercises to loose my muscles because he says it was tight. I did it every day three times. but im not sure if its improving my condition. haiz,,,,,terrible.actually I dun mind having a male therapist if all he does is teach me some exercises and touch here and there to ease my pain. my concern are things like massaging or having to open my clothes to check my condition. that's when I will feel uncomfortable maybe. im not afraid that I will get turned on by him cause I know I wont. lol just afraid he gets turned on by me. lolololoolololo.. omg perasannye aku. hahhaha. but whatever it is, anybody who has experienced the same condition as me, please shed some light. when will this thing go away. ive had enough of having low back pain n im only 21 years old okay......too young to have all these problems.

continuation of yesterday's story

so im not sure why ytday's post was left hanging like that. actually I posted more and it just got cut off.what happened???? okay but whatever, actually I wanted to talk about: being examined by an opposite gendered doctor.is that okay?hmmm..so like mentioned I got back pain for slightly more than three months and the doctor wanted to check if my spine got problems. so he needs to check for my anal tone. !@#$!#%!$%! u know how I embarrassed I was. omg. I know for some people this is no issue. but for me it IS. you may say that the doctor have probably seen it everyday so he doesn't mind. but I don't think so since he looks quite young probably just a few years older than e. its not that I think the doctor will do anything to me. besides, there is a female nurse by his side. so he can't possibly do anything. n that is also not my concern actually. my concern is embarrassment. I think the only person that has seen my tooooooooooooot is my mum and that too, when I was a baby. after that, no one else. so u should understand how uncomfortable I feel when someone wants to  look at mytoooooooooot. haiz......so when I refused the doctor to check, I asked him to call for a female doctor if there is. but I think all of them were busy so the doctor just say "its ok". and then wrote on the report. patient refuses dre to check for anal tone. loll!!!!!ok so that was abt it. a huge embarrassment. shouldn't have gone to the hospital haizzzzzzz.

last day of year 3 sem 1

so today is the last day of year 3 sem 1 in NUS. time flies so fast. it seems like just recently I applied for university admission. still remember the days where I will go to the letter box everyday to check if my application letter has arrived, and then my first few days in NUS- the blur days where I have trouble remembering which shuttle bus goes where. actually, up till now, I don't know which shuttle bus go where hahah..keep forgetting. just now, I took d1, thinking that it will go to science but actually nope. lol. what a blur student I am. 3 years and still blur as always. okay so whatever..I am not going to post abt uni stuff here. Will only write about it after I graduate so yeah..
So today I will actually post about something else. I have had lower back pain for 3 months :( sad rite. but seems like the pain is getting worse. so decided to go to the polyclinic one day because my mum asked me to. then went to geylang polyclinic and they refer me to the hospital but appointment is next year july..wtf rite. so long. so decided to go for myself as im afraid condition will get worse. so yeah went to this hospital a&e. waited like 123